Spiritual

I hear proponents of the 🏳️‍🌈 community talk about how certain individuals could have fluid sexuality- meaning they could be on any side of the spectrum- gay or straight. I think that’s how I will describe my spirituality. Fluid!

There are days where I am so much in love with God and his magnificent concept of giving hope to mankind- other days, I am on the other end where I don’t even believe in the existence of God and his promises.

Growing up in a very religious home where both parents were borderline fanatical about their religion, one will expect that their first child will default to being a strong bible-believing Christian 😂. Well, I am just as surprised as you.

Actually not so surprised. I have struggled with my faith since I was very young and couldn’t understand many concept of Christianity. As I grew older, I understood more about the concept of religion and its essence to mankind. Long talk-

This past few weeks have been a struggle. I have been on the low end of hope and it’s even so much of a struggle when work doesn’t even give you time to be as hopeless as you want to be. Lol.

I found myself asking a lot of questions like what value is this life we are living? Why are we doing all this incessant struggle? Why is there so much sadness and anguish? What is really there to live for. Are my friends that have died not having it better? I was so fed up.

So on days like this when I feel this way, I try to get myself distracted- go for a drive, listen to music, talk to a friend or just do anything that would make me get out of this feeling. I did talk to a friend. Not so much she could do but it was helpful.

But I am hoping life has more meaning to you than it has to me?

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